What is in your hand?

The future is nearing and it is all the more scarier because there are things in my past that I regret. I know that I have to eventually face the consequences of bad decisions, if I haven't already, sooner or later.
I have been struggling with a certain secret I kept for a long time. I struggle with lying, I'm kind of really good at it. Which is a really bad thing. I decided to come clean and tell someone. This person (who will remain anonymous, but it's probably really obvious as to whom I am referring to) at first was suprised...then he apologized. He was sorry that he didn't make himself approachable enough for me to be able to tell him the truth from the beginning. WHAT? So unexpected but I was so incredibly touched. It was so liberating and I felt even more confident that God working in my life.
After this liberating experience I immediately felt heavy and anxious again. I am not completely free of my sin. There was more I needed to do to, but once again God stepped in to break my chains from my sin that was causing so much guilt and stress.
"What is in your hand?" -Exodus 4:2
These are the words God spoke to Moses when Moses doubted his ability to fulfill his calling from God to free the Israelites from Egypt. Rather than trying to look far into the future or dwelling on that regretful past God wants us to focus on the present. In Moses' hand was his staff, God tells him with that staff Moses would be able to perform miracles. He just needed to take one step at a time and as his trust in God grew so did the miracles.

Before I start freaking out and breaking down I will remember this verse. I think I will make it my motto for the rest of this semester or until God reveals a new verse for me to mediate on.